** Please be aware there are potential triggers and direct mention of eating disorders, suicide and self harm in this post** I can’t take this anymore. I can’t. It’s like my head is imploding in. It’s time to get real. No cryptic. Just real. So, some context to my current dilemma. I’ve been with my […]Read More I need to do it again. *triggers*
Clear in my mind is what I should feel. But is it clear or slightly hazy? Being here anonymous and free to speak my mind doesn’t make it clearer. Like you’d think it would. Is it clear or is it hazy? That’s the thing. I’m torn, torn in different directions and neither feel right. They […]Read More I can’t say what I want to. I’ve been here before.
*trigger alert* So. When my world was crumbling – several years ago now. My home life was awful. My school life sucked. And everything just got to much. I felt it was all my fault. I felt I couldn’t ever do anything right or be the person that was expected of me. My depression kicked […]Read More Would I listen to my future self?
A question I ask myself everyday. A question I really wish I knew the answer too. If only I had a crystal ball to look into deeply. **I will give a trigger warning for self harm just to be on the safe side. It’s not in depth but more the results of** I always feel […]Read More Will I ever get better?
So, I’ve been trying to loose weight. You know like the stereotypical view of a woman. Over the last 5 years I have gained a lot of weight mostly because of my medication. But of course some of that is eating shit too. I can’t lie about that. In those 5 years I’ve had over […]Read More It’s just a number.