When a song speaks exactly where I am better than I could even begin to. ‘No one knows what goes on up inside my head there’s a new kind of poison and it’s starting to spread… they don’t think I need help but I’m scaring myself. I just want to be ok’ ‘all the voices […]Read More Represented in a song
** Please be aware there are potential triggers and direct mention of eating disorders, suicide and self harm in this post** I can’t take this anymore. I can’t. It’s like my head is imploding in. It’s time to get real. No cryptic. Just real. So, some context to my current dilemma. I’ve been with my […]Read More I need to do it again. *triggers*
Clear in my mind is what I should feel. But is it clear or slightly hazy? Being here anonymous and free to speak my mind doesn’t make it clearer. Like you’d think it would. Is it clear or is it hazy? That’s the thing. I’m torn, torn in different directions and neither feel right. They […]Read More I can’t say what I want to. I’ve been here before.
So sat on the train I come back to realisation after being lost in my thoughts of confusion and muddle. I became very aware that although sat my muscles are very tensed as if I am fully reliant on them keeping me still. I’m sat on a chair – there’s no need for this. I […]Read More When’s the crash?
Feeling as I feel, Thinking as I do. Out of control spirals line my view Some days more so than others They never leave my mind. The hurt and pain That will always stain My thoughts and feelings going forward. All through growing up at school everyone is so quick to point out our flaws. […]Read More Am I fit for purpose?
*trigger alert* So. When my world was crumbling – several years ago now. My home life was awful. My school life sucked. And everything just got to much. I felt it was all my fault. I felt I couldn’t ever do anything right or be the person that was expected of me. My depression kicked […]Read More Would I listen to my future self?
A question I ask myself everyday. A question I really wish I knew the answer too. If only I had a crystal ball to look into deeply. **I will give a trigger warning for self harm just to be on the safe side. It’s not in depth but more the results of** I always feel […]Read More Will I ever get better?